Saturday, June 25, 2011

Example is not the main thing in influencing others-it is the only thing. -Albert Schweitzer

Most if you know that I am a christian stay at home mom to 2 amazing children. I am very cautious of what I say around my kids, and I am very cautious of what is said by other people that around my children. Some of you reading this have probably been given the "stink-eye" from me if a naughty word has slipped out of your mouth ;)
Jason and I do not curse in front of our children and we have even banned what some people might think as innocent words from our vocabulary. Words such as: stupid, idiot, dumb, duh, crap...the list goes on. Before I tell you our dinner time story from this evening, let me assure you that we are not sheltering our children, but merely allowing them to actually be kids. Good, christ-centered children that speak kind words.
As parents, we want to uplift our children always. Teach them to be good people, teach them to be sensitive to others' needs, to praise God for what He does for us and to love one another.
Let me tell you our story..with yet, another preface.
I know that I am an excellent cook. This is no way being full of myself, I just recognize my gifts...and that is one of them! :)
Every now and then, when I think a meal is not quite perfect. I will say "sorry guys, it's probably not that good". Jason thinks it's ridiculous when I say this and enjoys every meal that is put on the plate. I have no idea why there is this tiny moment of insecurity that I have before we sit down to a meal. I suppose this is something I need to work on, and no better time to face this insecurity than tonight!
You see, Lily helped me prepare this evening's dessert. We have an abundance of mangos from the neighbor's tree. I was given the idea to make a cinnamon mango crisp tonight and invited my awesome kitchen helper. As we sat down to enjoy this amazing dessert. I start in with "picking" on what I could have changed about insecurites started in again. We hear this soft little voice say "Sorry guys, it's probably not that good"
If my heart has ever was that moment. Those ridiculous insecurities have slapped me right in the face tonight. My sweet (and very spunky) 4 year old was repreating me. What broke my heart was that we acknowledged Lily earlier that she was the one that made this yummy treat and now she thinks we didn't like it because I was saying that we made it with brown sugar instead of white sugar and that's why it was crunchier than normal crisp desserts. WOW!! I was shocked, I wanted to burst into tears, I wanted to erase that whole scene.
The holy spirit kept me strong and I firmly said, that this was the best dessert ever and that I was so proud that she had made it and on and on...I explained that "sometimes mommy wants to make the best meals ever that she sometimes thinks she doesn't do a good job". She looked at me and said, "mommy, this is really good..thank you"
You see folks, even when you think you are protecting your children from harsh words, or certain movies and shows, or thngs on the might be the tiniest, most innocent things that you think aren't harmful, that they hear and repeat...and sadly, make your insecurities..their insecurities.
Lesson learned...